seoul garden...wait for me!!!!

hehe....my bf promised me dat he will treat me to Seoul garden tommorow..i mean to be exact today la bcuz now its already been 5 a.m (wat the heck i still doing here).......well im so excited...(sape x excited..makan free)....ok let me highlight and bold FREE...so maybe afta dat we r going to daiso(my fav japan supermarket)...huhu..i want to make a homade craft (im thinking bout doodoll) for him as a present for his new car...omg..i spilled it already..sowie syg..im such a big mouth ler.....hehe...hopefully it will go jus like our usual date...even though i have class at 9 a.m...but im not looking forward for dat...bye2 envirement..bye stuctural analysis.....im gonna having so much fun..sowie i have to leave u behind..dun worry ill make up to u later..muahhhhhhhhahaha...

xoxo,
tyra

how does beauty defines u??

hahaha..........actually i just finished watching ANTM cycle fifteen..i noe inoe...OMG....ITS a stunning show it is?...i love da episode when chelsey get her won prize which is VERSACE COAT...i repeat VERSACE COAT okay........im so envy wif her...anyway i didnt quite agree wif da jugde because they put ann as the winner..i prefer it to be chelsey..the judge say chelsey more looks like american....n ann is suitable for italian vogue cuz shes looks more europe(i guess can recap what the judges said)...frankly speaking,ann,she good on the photo.(wins 5 row ).but when it is not photoshoot sesion,she looks ordinary..not breathtaking watsoeva.beside she cant even walk in the runaway..seriously gurl u need to work on dat.but i cant deny her beauty in all her shoot.



here is some picture of ann (which i really2 like)


now let go the the model that i like the most...jane....she is very like victoria secret model..shes really pretty in the foto and also in person...i just love her..


next person it kayla...shes so unique..everythings is good except for the fact she is a lesbo..shes got very commercial looks...she wins 2 challenges... let take a look on her..



chelsey is one of the model that goes the finale.yeahh..at least 1 of my top 3 favourite go to the final..she have modeling experience so i guess i wasnt that hard for her... besides,she never ever touch the bottom 3....fuhhh.....shes totally have the elite,elegance looks..

very steammy pic..shes reallly into it!!..yay


i love the episode when Matthew Rolston is one of the guest...it was awsome..i love how he works wif his brains..its a really a woowoo land..

so..i do looking forwards for next cycle..so meanwhile,i just enjoy watching other thing that brings me exciting just like antm...see u soon..

xoxo,
tyra

GADO LAGI!!!!

huhu.....if he really loves me..he wouldnt do dis to me.........im getting tired of this........

ya ALLAH,

GIVE ME SUMTHING..ANYTHING SO I WOULD NOE WAT SHOULD I DO..

i used to be just fine......

they said dun hold back da past..cherish the present...but the reasons y we scare to let go of our past is cuz thats da only happy moment we have...i never really have a great freind here..i meant in my current university......i miss having ira,huda,yuyu,ijat nelly....i miss having them..i do admit im a bit jelous cuz even im not there,they still moving on easily while im still living wif da moments we'd shared.......im not really into crying things....eventhough i used to have my family thousands of miles aparts..i dun really exprienced 'homesick' o watsoeva..i used to be a strong girl wif a lot of smile on my face.....i dun need a boyfriend back then,cuz i have a lots of my babes dat keep me entertain..n now..even if i have him..i still feel lonely....i dun have so many friend.i owez left behind....i ended up being clingy to him....n thats not me...wif previous i just let my boy do wateva he wants while im spending my percious time wif my betties...have dinner..i barely saw him or dated him.....n dat times..bf isnt my only one n important..........i jus thinking.........maybe we gain sumthing....we loose sumthing..we cant have it both.............n im suck at making friend..im so lonely.....

im so depressed..i need to be saved

xoxo,
tyra

Should i let u go?? should i?? could i??

dear diary,

i cant take dis any longer..i dunno where to turn to.i dunt have fren by my side...i dun have him..i dun have anybody else accept u to hear me out....huhuhu...i noe it is stupid jealousy but i couldn't help myself from dat.......all i even ask is ur love n ur attention.....it is too much too ask??im not jealous over nothing...im jealous because it is sumthing..y can u understand dat..u said love that keeps us together.but this is not together dat ive pictured in my mid..i hate da fact dat even if i leave u will be fine...i hate when we fight like dis....i dun want to be ignored..i miss talking to u on da phone..i miss having u by my side...i miss having us..i feel so unsecured rite noe.... im reaching my limit....tell if im no longer needed then ill go.cuz i dunno wat else to do........

Dear brain, sorry for overloading you with thoughts of him.
Dear tummy, sorry for all the butterflies.
Dear pillow, sorry for all the tears.
Dear heart, sorry for all the damage.
Dear me, sorry for being head-over-heels in love with him.

mode:bunge

hehe..its been a long tyme since my last post...finally i have tyme to sit n relax..n type wateva i want here..ok..i guess dis its kindda lame story..but jus for to let u noe,here i inclede my bf pic..(since rmi insist i nk tgk)...hehe..plus nk tunjuk bakat i gune palaroid(new sofware)...i dunno when exactly we've have start dating each other...but i do noe dat..da moment i have wif him..its da moment i cherish..forever n ever....

xoxo

tyra